77: regrets

The last couple days I've been watching an Jane Austenesque youtube channel (actually, last night I watched over 50 vids...but it was the weekend!). In between gasping and laughing and awwwing, a recurring commercial keeps popping up every few videos about a soldier's homecoming.

I remember when I was dating a soldier, and he came home on break from Afghanistan. I remember being self-centered and petty from the moment he stepped in the car.

That girl. The girl you look at from afar and think "I can't believe she's acting that way."

I don't ask God to forgive me, because I know He has.

But I wish I could go back in time and redo several things in that relationship. Not so that it would have worked out, but for the sake of doing things right in a relationship with another human being. For the sake of no regrets and not causing pain to a friend.

And I do pray that I have changed. That I have learned.

To Him who can keep you from stumbling

My new window decoration in my bathroom

P.S. If you want some good reading/watching, try Dear Mr. Knightly by Katherine Reay, Amanda by Debra White Smith, Jane Fairfax by Joan Aiken, or the youtube channel "Emma Approved." Admittedly, those all have to do with Emma (except for Dear Mr. Knightly, which really doesn't), but they are all highly enjoyable!