I've felt guilty wanting to be in a relationship when I just came out of a relationship with a wonderful man while several of my friends have never had that chance. It feels greedy of me. But someone recently reminded me that it is natural to want to be in relationship. It is a human desire and shared by all humans, no matter your dating history.
And so I stand here in the middle of the night in the kitchen typing on my laptop, emotionally eating pumpkin bread leftover from a girl friend who visited tonight. I had the delight of introducing her to a favorite TV series--one of those that perfectly combines drama and humor and character development and just a hint of romance. But, she has gone home, my parents are asleep, I am here with a free weekend ahead of me, and--
And I am thinking about how happy I am teaching this year.
I am thinking about how if I was doing anything else, I would still want to make time to teach Bible to kids.
No, my "career" is not a relationship. My students go home to their families, and I go home to my parents. I do not currently have my own husband and children to pour into. But I have my parents to honor, and I have students with whom I can share so many things that God has taught me since my youth. I am living life. I am pouring out what God has poured into me. It makes me happy.
I also found out I never watched last week's episode of Chesapeake Shores, and that kinda makes me happy too. :)
Notes to self: It isn't a comparison game. It is about living the cards you've been dealt, knowing that you aren't at the mercy of fate but under the will of God.
Addendum to self: Don't stay up too late or you'll stay up til 2am trying to avoid the feeling of aloneness.
